You know, sometimes I really just wonder what is wrong with me. I have a great guy who treats me like gold, and I like him, but maybe I just don’t like him enough. I tell him we don’t have enough in common. Why can’t I just feel the same way? Or, I really like someone who just isn’t into me like I am into him. Why? What is wrong with me? Will I ever meet someone and like him enough to want to settle down, and vice versa? My apologies if this post is all over the place. But writing usually makes me feel better, and right now I’m just so disappointed that things didn’t work out as I thought they might, and in myself.
I realize that you can’t control who you like and who you don’t, and some things just happen and either are meant to be or aren’t. I am starting to wonder if I am bound to be single forever at this point. Not that there is really anything wrong with that; I have a lot of friends and love being single in DC. But everyone wants to settle down, find that special someone who you ultimately can share the rest of your life with. I keep thinking I am close, and then something, and I wish I knew what that was..holds me back. I just wish it was a little bit easier. I’m sorry, I really am. And I’m sorry I’m being all public about this, but you know me, I like to be dramatic.